Today I took a step toward conquering my anxiety.
My anxiety disorder is something that I have struggled with my whole life and at times, it was hugely debilitating. When I was a child, I always made up reasons about why I could not go to sleep overs because I was too scared of being away from my mom. I only applied to one college because it was within easy driving distance of my home since I was too afraid of moving away. When the rest of the class was required to do an oral presentation, I had doctor’s notes allowing me to do different projects because of my extreme phobia of public speaking. My anxiety was at the root of how I handled all situations. As I got older, my anxiety has gradually become more well-managed thanks to medication, years of therapy, and learned coping mechanisms, such as forcing myself to cope with situations that make me uncomfortable. However, my gut instinct is still to feel helpless and ask for assistance whenever I feel scared.
Moving to Los Angeles and starting fresh here with no one other than my husband and dogs was a massive triumph over my anxiety. I still can’t believe I managed it. Today was another triumph. My anxiety and urge to feel helpless makes it easy for me to fall prey to manipulative people looking for targets. Today, after 5 months of hard work and research that I did entirely on my own, I spoke publicly, stood up for myself, and sought justice. And I did a damn good job. I cannot give details just now, but I hope you can share in the joy of my accomplishment anyway!
This adorable shirt dress is courtesy of Sincerely Suree. She has tons of really cute designs for sale in her Poshmark shop! My shoes are my new favorites…They are Stuart Weitzman and I scored them for only $37 at the Gilt City event!